Hello darlings! Let us pick up
from last week’s post, so for you who did not read it, read it here in order to
understand the sequence of my story.
As I said previously, adopting a
child is not a feeling but an action, which often brings consequences we are
not prepared for. But the force that drives us makes us surpass all the
challenges.
As the days and months went by we
loved that girl more and more, and finally we seemed to be free from the
pressure of her wet nurse and biological father. But not for too long, when we
least expected the wet nurse again tried to convince her father to bring Ana
Filipa back, but at this stage but she and us were already fully adapted, and
the fight for adoption continued, her mother had agreed to it and signed the
papers from day one, but the father, although he wanted nothing to do with the
girl, did not want to sign the papers, and the midst of so much bureaucracy , the
life of that little girl was at stake.
There had to be a lot of love,
patience, understanding, and above all prayers and putting God in control of
everything.
There truly began our war because
the girl had to return to the wet nurse, and the worse is that she kept her
there for days, sleeping there and everything. I lived difficult moments not
only for me but above all for her, that was already used to all of us, and now
had to go back again!
The weeks went by, the pain grew,
only to think what that girl was suffering away from us, there were times I
wondered if I would have the strength to hold on to her . I was very young, only
17 and just assumed that responsibility I knew that God had given me and could
not give up.
I remember once coming into my
room and poured out my heart before God and ask why God had put her in my way,
and suddenly took her again?
I would go to sleep and wake up thinking
about her, I cannot explain how great this love has developed in just a few
months, but I knew that God had a very great purpose for her and I was included
in it, and that no one could take away from me.
I remember that I spent many
nights crying, the pain was immense, but in prayer everything is solved and
finally she came back never to return to the wet nurse again, the woman finally
gave up on that idea.
Ana was growing and everything
was going well, but we were always insecure for sometimes her father said he
would sign the adoption papers and other times he said he would not, it was a
real war.
After that day the struggles did
not end, but I did not surrender before them, I knew I had God himself as my
ally, He is the One who placed Ana in my way.
How beautiful it was to see her growth
with no apparent traumas, until something happened!
When she was four years old, her
father says he wanted her to go to her biological mother, imagine how could it
be?? She had been with us for roughly four years, and her mother did not have
the minimum conditions to care for her in any way, how to undo the bond
created? Although Ana was a little girl, she realized the tension and
uncertainty on our part, and even though she did not know exactly what was
going on, she knew something was not right!
Until one day her father rings
the bell and says he would take her by force or kill all of us. He had a gun
with him, imagine. My family, who never had problems with anybody, find
ourselves in such a threatening situation!
But at that moment revolt came
over me, and prayed to God saying I did not accept that. Ana was scared and hid
under the dining room table, my parents were with her, and I was alone facing
the giant, a spirit of boldness descended upon me, I confess I did not think of
the consequences, I did not have time for that, my faith was screaming louder.
I confronted him and told him
what I had to say without being intimidated, I made him think of that wrongdoing,
after all, they decided to give us the girl, and if he really liked her, he had
to show it with attitudes and let her stay with her new family. They should
have thought it through before giving her away.
I spoke to him for over an hour, he
calmed down and promised never to bothers us again.
But Ana became very frightened from
that day on, and although she had never gone away from us, fear settled on her because
there was no sense of security.
We did something supernatural to
keep her always near us, we made every effort to protect her.
But even in all these trials I
never thought about giving up, after all, I saw the devil working because he
wanted her soul, but then saw the soul which God has entrusted me to lead to
the path of truth, and this gave me an unshakable strength.
We will continue next week, there
is a lot more to this story, do not miss any post and leave your comments here,
I have been reading them all, each of them adds a lot in my life!
Sweet kisses, see you then!!!
Catia Rubim
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