As I
had mentioned on the previous post, after receiving the Holy Spirit I began to
have a strong desire to serve on the altar. I remember when I was 15 to 16
years old I participated of a Campaign of Israel and I asked for a man of God.
But when I arrived in Brazil and I saw that there were many assistant pastors,
I confess I had a certain fear, I was afraid of choosing wrong! I did not want
to marry anyone; I wanted a man of God prepared by God Himself for me.
After
a few months in Brazil, I was introduced to a pastor. He was friendly and
apparently from God. He asked my father and the bishop responsible for him
permission to talk to me. We started talking, then we started dating but I
always asked God to show me if he was God's choice for me because I didn't want
to make a mistake. And in our conversations he would always utter something
that made me thoughtful about us. He would always say that there were many
other assistants interested in him, a long line of assistants interested in
him, and that they were very beautiful, etc… but he had chosen me, but I could
feel in his word a little bit of disdain. I felt ugly in comparison to the
descriptions of all the other candidates lol… I had a strange feeling about
these conversations. What did he mean with I chose you? What did he mean with
there were so many in line? Why did he choose me then? Just because I was the
daughter of the bishop? Since when I was in someone's line? You see friends
that I would not just pay attention to the beautiful words and the plans we were
making together, but I was also weighing every word he said, I was not blinded
by love at a point of not seeing the obvious, I did not want to be deceived by
my feelings but I wanted to be guided by the Holy Spirit. Our love life is a very
important area of our lives and we should use our head, reason and faith in
order to be happy. So I made a very serious prayer to God and I asked Him to
show me what to do, ever since we were dating I noticed these attitudes, which I
did not like, imagine how it would be like later. And God showed me what to do.
So,
I suited myself with strength, faith and courage – because we already had
wedding plans - and so I cancelled everything, yes with no feelings. That
feeling and doubt in me showed me that he was not the choice of God for me. I
had to make a serious decision: to act by my feelings and continue dating or to
act by my intelligent faith, hearing God's direction and end everything. I
preferred to use my faith and obey God. I broke up with him not caring if he
was a pastor or not and I was confident that God had another one ready for me.
When a person is not from God, deep down we know who is and who is not and
that's when we have to decide whether to obey God or not. Now, you see how
important and wonderful it is to hear and obey God. Today unfortunately this
pastor is no longer in the work of God. Imagine if I had married him, where
would I be today?
My
advice to you friends, is: Wait on God! Ask Him to prepare that special person
for you… Only He knows what is best for us. If you are in a relationship and
you notice something wrong, something that brings a little doubt, something
that does not go with your faith, if God is showing that he is not the right
person for you, do not be afraid to end everything and obey God, believe that
He will honor you for your obedience. It doesn't matter if he is a pastor, an
assistant or whoever, if God shows you that he is not the right person, do not
insist, because if you insist you will suffer the consequences tomorrow. The
secret friends, is to trust in God and not be afraid to obey Him. Remember: It
is better to obey God than to sacrifice.
Next
week I will tell you about the one I thought was the love of my life, what do
you think happened? A kiss to all and see you then.
7 comments:
wow you are very strong. im married already but i also have the desire to save souls. me and my husband. we have toddlers that still need our attention but i believe God will make a way. thank you Mrs. you inspire me with the strength that you have
Thanks ma'am for this. You were indeed using the Intelligent faith and i learnt from this, because i know one day some how this message will be of help to me. Thank you.
Thank you Mam for this article
Our lovelife is the most important part of our lives after our salvation. So we can not go wrong in this aspect. So as you said we have to trust God and wait on Him.
Thank you once again.
The can be nothing more important than our Salvation, we should always seek for spirit if wisdom and discernment in choosing the right partner because it is our decisions that determines our future,thank you for this helpful blog Mrs.
The can be nothing more important than our Salvation, we should always seek for spirit if wisdom and discernment in choosing the right partner because it is our decisions that determines our future,thank you for this helpful blog Mrs.
The only thing I can say is, "God, I need your help! Show me what to do!"
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